[His reciprocal touch, the feeling of his calloused thumb sweeping over her fingers, is enough of a confirmation. She doesnβt understand the internal struggle, but is aware heβs battling it. She offers a sincere if not sad sort of smile in turn. Itβs okay, it says. Even if itβs not. Even if nothing about this is okay on any sort of level.
Sheβll be okay, she knows. If thereβs one thing about Rhaenyra, she perseveres. She must. She finds some way. And if it is not right now, then she will make some way of finding what she wants in the marriage with Laenor, because she cannot imagine a passionless marriage. She would also hope Laenor is happy, and she already doubts that physically she probably cannot make him happy.
The kiss she responds with is softer than the others, one that probably speaks more in truth. She wants him of course, that fire within her begging to come out. If her fingers curl against his hand, it is to physically stop her from trying to pull him down again. Heβs made it clear, and she has to respect it even if she doesnβt like it. She has to content herself with these final moments, as hard as they are to let go.]
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Sheβll be okay, she knows. If thereβs one thing about Rhaenyra, she perseveres. She must. She finds some way. And if it is not right now, then she will make some way of finding what she wants in the marriage with Laenor, because she cannot imagine a passionless marriage. She would also hope Laenor is happy, and she already doubts that physically she probably cannot make him happy.
The kiss she responds with is softer than the others, one that probably speaks more in truth. She wants him of course, that fire within her begging to come out. If her fingers curl against his hand, it is to physically stop her from trying to pull him down again. Heβs made it clear, and she has to respect it even if she doesnβt like it. She has to content herself with these final moments, as hard as they are to let go.]